3 biggest learning that changed my life
I LOST MY PERIOD!
I made a lot of mistakes which made me lose my periods.
The three biggest mistakes I made in my journey are:
1. Not eating enough calories during the day and binge eating at night:
I assumed I shouldn't eat a lot during the day and do a lot of exercises(mostly, I did cardio) to lose weight.
Over time, my body got used to it eating less.
The twist is I got high cravings at night, especially after 11 pm
First, I drank water( I thought I was dehydrated)
But still, the food cravings didn't go.
I gave in.
One day,
I ate spoons of just jam, a whole box of pizza, cheese, and some random snacks.
I am not even kidding.
I felt guilty for eating a lot of food(because I was "losing progress"), and I promised myself I would not repeat this.
Spoiler alert: I did. MULTIPLE TIMES
In retrospect, I think I was binge eating(but I was not diagnosed with it)
Eating a lot at night made me feel worse in the morning.
I felt so uncomfortable and bloated the next day.
Through the trial and error method, I realized that I wasn't eating enough food during the day, which caused cravings for food at night.
So now I try to balance my meals by eating enough(maybe snacks in between).
So, I don't stuff myself at night.
Now, I feel much better.
I feel I could get energy from the food rather than feeling tired and sleepy.
Even on days, I do feel hungry at night.
Now, I wouldn't drink water and sleep.
I honor my hunger and drink milk (which satiates my hunger and helps me sleep).
2. I will starve myself if I overeat:
Yes, you heard that right!
Before:
If I planned to eat out for dinner, I would drink water or eat VERY less and exercise a lot to "make up" for the calories I am going to eat.
It was stupid because,
If I am starving, I eat more than I usually would (to feel satisfied).
So there is no point in starving
Also,
If I overate on some days, I should skip the next meal.
In retrospect, I don't know how I got these ideas in my head.
It turns out many people still do it.
The other day, my friend was ignorantly telling me she skipped dinner because she ate more pizza than she "should."
The first thing is there is nothing wrong if you overeat or planning on eating out. You won't gain weight in the short term (either one day or a few weeks)
Especially during festive times, eat those sweets.
Enjoy those days rather than worrying about your weight, you can always gain or lose weight, but you won't get the time lost with your loved ones.
Secondly,
if you overeat on some days,
1. Stay calm
2. Don't skip the next meal. Continue eating as you would normally
3. Go for a walk to ease the uneasiness you feel when you have eaten too much
4. Drink lots of water and stay hydrated
The lesson I learned is,
Some days I feel hungrier. Some days I feel less hungry.
Many factors affected my hunger, such as sleep, activity level, hormones, stress, etc.
3. Sleeping late at night
Now people call me boring.
I cancel the plan whenever they call me to hang out after 10 pm.
Once upon a time, I was nocturnal(my parents would call me owl-ups because I was awake all night.)
I would sleep at 2 am and wake up at 11 am or even at 1 pm.
It became worse during the lockdown. I would sleep only at 5 am after binge-watching all the series.
Now I am retired from being nocturnal.
My sleeping habits were becoming worse and worse.
I had horrible mood swings, anxiety, and digestive problems.
At one point, I even lost my periods. That was a wake-up call for me.
So I decided to turn my life for the better
It was a slow process
I slept in time, ate more nutritious foods, and was somewhat physically active.
Now I feel like a human being.
I feel a lot better physically and mentally.
If someone had told me I would feel a lot better, I would not believe them.
I was so used to feeling so horrible that I thought there was no other way to live.
I am glad I made those mistakes.
I am glad I learned from those mistakes.
So these are the three biggest learning that changed my life.
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